perplexed thoughts n dilemmas.. i hate this summer

havnt update in a while, wussup everyone, to all the faithful 'styl3z.blogspot' readers.. this wil be my last update til further notice..

ive made a deal w/ my parents bout my drums n the summer.. first they said they would take away my drums.. then they said im not allowed to play the drums for the summer cuz i focus on drums more than my 'education'..
so ive made a deal w/ em, since they're so worried that i spend more time on drums than my studies, i volunteerly suggested that they take away my computer for teh summer, in return i get to play the drums
fortunately the deal worked, but now i can no longer update this blog pg, n my aa pg.. unless im home alone ^^

this whole week my mom's friend stayed w/ us.. everyday we went sumwhere, if i remember correctly.. it was like this
mon- heartlake park
tues- i forget..
wed- wonderland
thus- ontario place
fri- niagara falls
sat- balm beach

but yea, it was one hella week.. im extremely tired.. they left at 10 this mornin - sunday.
im supposed to be at church leadin praise but the timing wasnt right.. my parents had to giv ride to airport n therefore i had no ride to church..

one of my close friend's been havin some troubles w/ his gf..
i wont mention his name for protection wise,  but his gf is in korea rite now, n he doesnt know if she's comin baq, she mite juss stay there for the rest of her life.. which suckss juss from hearin it =T
im sry mann, hopefully ull get over it,
like u said "out of sight = out of mind" right? if she doesnt make it baq, ull get over n find a new one like u always do =) dun stress too much about it, 
ur the only person i depend on when it comes to my problems/troubles.. to see u stressin urself w/ a dilemma isnt a pretty picture for me.. if u need  ne thin, let me know k?

its really weird, now that i think about it, i never keep my promises w/ myself.. i remember tellin myself "im never gonna get into relationships" and "im never gonna touch cigarette/alcohol"..
i never wanted a gf cuz of i grew up seein my friends treatin their gf(s) like dirt.. i was afraid id be juss like them, n if i treated n e one like that, i could never forgive myself..
i never wanted to smoke or drink.. cuz i thought they were pointless/stupid n a waste of time.. but now that i look at it, id much rather regreat sumthin i Did than sumthin i Didnt do..

im in sum serious dilemma rite now.. i dun wanna make a big deal outta this but maybe i made a mistake.. lately i keep thinkin, i shouldve kept the promise i made w/ myself..
'try everything only once'.. everyday my thoughts of you grow weaker and smaller.. im actually scared that i might stop thinkin about you, i dun want that.. but wut can i do? maybe my friend Is right bout the whole 'out of sight = out of mind' thing..

sigh..

aa link

not gonna use this for a while - unless sumthin unusual happens.. as for now, use this link if u wanna know wut ive been up to...
 
http://www.asianavenue.com/Members/Me/personalpage.html?MEMBER=chocopie_kp

quizi thing..

Phoenix:
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reborn from their own ashes. You are strog
willed an confident- a true leader. Although
you can get down in the dumps occasionaly you
are never there for long. Many people flock
around you and like you as a friend.


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free dayyy =)

alritee, this is the last tyme im gonna be writin one of those 'wut i did today' crap.. lets see, yesterday was awesomee.. i finally got to go out! X) even if it was for only bout an hour but styll, i got to get outta my house ^-^ it was pretty cool, went to jenn's house w/ mita, andrew, james n jen.. they came all the way to my house to 'pick me up' hahah.. thanks guys, i owe u one ^^
didnt do much at jen's.. juss chilled.. literally,
it was nice to see sum ppl i havnt seen since exams.. but yeh - tried ouiji board.. how much was it mita? 15 bucks? hahah never waste it on that stuff again.. unless u get the candles n all the sets ready ^^
n then i was introduced to the weirdest game in the world.. i dun even remember wut its called.. it was one of those clappin games that lil girls used to play in elementary ^^;;;; but i won, haha - thats all that matters loll,
later that day, had a lil push-up contest w/ my good ol' buddy john.. hahah - beat him by 4 push-ups lol =P n u were so confident too hehe,
mm n then i watched raw, then went to bed..

today, i woke up, went to indigo, n juss read as many things as i could.. it was actually pretty cool - cuz there were so many people there.. like 20-30? i never knew so many ppl liked to read.. hmm, but most of em were girls - not suprised there.. guess that chinese prof was right bout females.. went to grocery shoppin after that, bought myself a big chickennn XD hahaha.. mmm 'protein'... hahaa, n e wyz i juss finished that chicken, im soooo fulll.. i havnt ran for 3 days.. i feel SICK.. :'( i was supposed to go today but i couldnt - not 'allowed'.. wut the frig, its juss running.. blah.. sry mita, guess next tyme eh, n e whoo ive been watchin this drum solo cilp of travis barker.. im really close to playin it completely, ill probably be able to play it from start to finish by saturday.. ill get baq on this if n e thin interesting happens.. later

the mis-fortune cookies..

hmm, my report card came couple of days ago.. X( my marks hav never been this low.. damn, i guess i slacked off a lot.. lol, well - wutever u put is wutever u get, ill do my best next tyme.. =)
juss like my parent's fav saying 'every action there is a consequence'.. as much as i dislike that quote, i gotta face the consequences of gettin a really low mark.. n that means no more drums, and no more goin out for a while, yess - it means i gotta stay low n safe in the house... which sucksss ass.. im never slacking off again.. =P

went to mandarin w/ family today.. the hugeee one beside 401 or 410 or w/e.. i dont mean to be rude, but chinese ppl annoy me everytyme i see them.. i dunno why.. they juss act/talk/walk/look weird.. i hope its not n e thin racist.. n the fortune cookies.. they're never ever right, it said 'you will find the reason of your existance soon' or sumthin like that.. its always off, once it told me 'you will find your clothes'... wth is that? the only thing that was good about that restaurant was the food, food was awesome.. service n the fortune cookie - horribleee.. ^^; i dunno why im criticizin everythin these days, must be the side-effect of the 'bad streaks' ive been gettin.. i hope it'll get better soon,

know what, i dont like doin this, writin bout my day.. if im gonna write sumthin that everyone on earth can read.. i dun wanna write bout 'how my day went' -- thats boring n plain.. everyone does that, i want sumthin dif.. hmmm.. i dunno, next tyme i update this.. im gonna hav sumthin 'unique' for ppl to read about.. =)