"the purpose driven life.."

"the purpose driven life" is the title of the book i am readin rite now.. (yes, im suprised at myself too)

its a really good book - basically the whole book is about how stupid/foolish ppl are always trying to impress others, to look more superior juss so they can show off and look down on them. and by doing this it makes them feel like they've accomplished so much in their lives..
when in reality - all they've done is wastin a valuable time tryin to make themselves 'look' better in 'other ppls eyes'..
and the book tells how the only thing that matters in the end is about how ppl 'look' in 'God's eyes'..

ive only read about 4 chapters.. i think theres like 30 in total - but im already beginning to understand the stupidity of the humans.
this book is amazing.. it says that there's a dif between ppl who 'craves' money and ppl who 'thinks' money. n wut it teaches u is that everything that we do is all cuz of money.
no matter how 'pure' or how 'happy' u think u are, everyone is after it, and everyone craves for it.

Rick Warrens (the author) quotes -
"if the definition of a 'sucessful life' for you is havin tons of money, owning a huge house with 3 garage doors - then by all means go ahead n get that money, go ahead and live a pointless/meaningless life"

this really hit me, because this is the exact description of the future that common asian parents want their kids to have, including my very own..
everyone these days are valued by what they have - if you own a huge house w/ a 60grand car, ur considered 'sucessful', and if you dont - vice versa.
but to whose standards are you considered a 'sucess' or a 'failure'? by those around you.
see - if you pay attention to what people think, if you live up to what other people want, you're never gonna have the satisfaction you deserve.

you have to work for what 'sucess' means for 'you' - not for ur parents, ur friends, ur teacher, etc. you have to find ur own definition of 'sucess' and until you do - ull keep on bein criticized by others, pressured to become 'sucessful' in their definition, not yours..

yes - its harsh but its the truth - this juss came to me as i was readin the book, n i thought someone i hav in mind needed it, i hope it helped - ill write more when i finish the book ^^

haha.. did i say 'hate'?

ill get back to the journals soon, as fer now im gonna put wut i put on my aa..
this summer isnt as bad as i thought itd be..
everythins goin well, i feel like a kid inside a candystore loll
til now i remember takin things so seriously.. but recently i seem to b laughin at everything..
feelin at ease, n i dun remember myself bein as satisfied as i am now..

i wonder why?
hmm.. could it becuz i got my drums back? no
cuz i dun hav to deal w/ skool ppl? nope
cuz my back is healing? nah but i aint complainin =)
cuz im beautiful? haha its a thought.. lol
i think im like this cuz i used to be so wanting.. so `obsessed` w/ everything, stressin myself out so much at such pointless things..
things like girls, popularity, etc.. but Especially `bein nice` n `swallowin my pride for others`

but not n e more, i will no longer stress myself out by swallowin my guts n lettin some punks push me around..
theres only a few who knows who i really 'am'.. and i guaran-damn-tee that n e one readin isnt one of them..

little did u know that i had two sides of myself..
im stickin with one now..
if u push me, ur gonna get pushed back 10 times harder.. dats all i gotta say..
so push me one more time.. i dare you