everything is meant to happen....? hailss no

wow, today is officially the worst day of my life lol..
i dun wanna write all bout it tho.. i dont like complaining.
there's 3 things i cannot stand in this world, they're - mosquitos, ppl who whine/complain, and tickling, yes im extremely ticklish, n e wyz yeah so im gonna keep it short
1- im not goin to the army n e more (not good)
2- gina's sick (reallly not good)
3- i almost lost my sister
4- im craving for a cig
alrite bout the army thing, this is wut happened..
first, they say i hav until monday to get a call.. i didnt get a call on monday so i thought i wasnt gonna go.
they call me on wed n tells me that im in, so i go n pick up my stuff n go thru basic training routine.
today they call me n tells me that 3 instrutors were cut for some reason, n therefore 9 ppl cannot go, cuz its 3 ppl per instructor.. n they juss picked random ppl n i got picked as one.

its not that bad i guess.. i can always go next year, i see everything in life as pages in a book, everyday is a page, and as u get older its like turning the next page in a book, if unfortunate things happen to u, its like havin a ripped off page in the book, u cant juss sit there n be sadd bout it cuz thats not gonna solve n e thing, u juss gotta go 'oh, look at that, a ripped page, i wonder wut happened?' n juss turn to the next page.. i know its a complicated analysis but if u get my point then its all good.
u know.. sum ppl are actually worth being with, i realized that today.. i cant say thanks enuf.. no ones ever shown so much care to me b4, i wish i could hav that kind of personality, hm, well ill make up for it sumhoww =)
alrite.. so much for the 'short' entry.. lol, ill be baq on this later

=O~

guess what, i juss receieved 'the call' from the army.. XD
i get sworn in today, n i get to pick up my uniform n equipments too =D,
i didnt even eat breakfast cuz i gotta be there by 11.. be baq on this after i come baq..

=T

well, there u hav it, no call from the army, which means i didnt get hired for the summer course.. which means im gonna hav to spend another summer juss enjoyin the weather, n prepare fer next yr's education.. (BOOooo~ haha)
sighh.. i dont 'sigh' usually but rite now i think i need a good long sighin to do.. =T, i guess i was too young, there's always next yr tho..
mann i shaved my head fer nothing! grrr..
im gonna write more thoughts bout this tmw.. im really not in a mood to write rite now, so 'nite til then..

tired..

Dangg… wutta day, woke up around 11, tried to get my brain to think straight fer about an hour, then went out to boston pizza fer brunch.
ive never been to that place b4, its pretty amazing, so ‘italianish’.. the best pizza ive had so far, I highly recommend all u pizza addicts to pay a visit there once in a while..
ne wyz, came home, the backyard needed sum trimming.. did pure manual labor til 9.. n now im here b4 takin shower n dinner..
mann I better get that call from the army on Monday.. I don’t want my summer to be like this all the tyme, its horrible.. hopefully my prayer will be answered..
dunno why, but I feel so.. ‘empty’ these days.. i gotta pull myself together, i need my ol’ smile baq..
went to gym yesterday fer the first tyme since like.. january, it was so expensive tho, but thx to rich rich james, we both got thru one day pass.. hahah, i owe u one buddy
hmm, I juss rememebered wut one of my ‘anti-comp’ friend told me couple of days ago..
she quotes, “wuts the point of doin all that ‘my own page’ crap? its such a waste of tyme, you don’t get n e thin in return, you’re juss sittin there typin non-sense, why don’t u juss get a good exercise durin that tyme?”
lets juss pretend her name is ‘kate’ fer protection purposes..
kate here, obviously has no clue wut the hell she’s talking about..
I dunno about u kate, but if you think sharing ur own thoughts about how your day went w/ others is a waste of tyme, then I pity you.. you get feedbacks from others, when you get feedbacks from others, it means that some ppl out there actually give a crap about what u think.. if you’re sayin that’s non-sense, then I hav nothing to say to you..
don’t tell me expressin my own thoughts on a blank sheet of paper that everyone on earth can read is a waste of tyme..
u know wuts a really good waste of tyme? goin around tryin to make ppl hate the same thing you hate.. juss cuz u hate sumthin, doesn’t mean everyone else’s gotta hate it too.. u shouldn’t hate so much.. don’t u know the old saying, “funny how if you love sumthin, it loves you back, but if you hate sumthin, it hates you back..”?
n e wyz, im thru w/ this argument, hope ull change ur mind after readin my thoughts.. u never gave me a chance to talk baq to u before..

almost done..

3 down, 1 to go, finally the last day of skool, mann ive been waitin for this day for sucha long tymee XD
well, as expected, there was no call from the army, =T ah well.. styll got tmw, cant hurt to hope =) know what tho, i only applied cuz i wanted to get fit, n i found out bout the money after that, so even if i dont get to go, it wont be that bad i guess.. i could styll go to citycentre gym w/ my buddies n get fit ;)
i dunno, i styll wanna go tho, i did everything, passed the writin test, med test, physical test, n i even got 'more than suitable' in the interview.. i even shaved my head, thats how much i wanted to go.. they better have good explanations if they dun hire me..
n e whoo, enuf bout the army, ive been gettin headaches cuz of it, i havnt touched my drums in a whilee.. i think i mite b losin interest.. (=O~) hahah, its okay, ill get baq on it as soon as i clear sum things around me.. i ran into an old friend of mine today, he changed a lotttt.. danggg he turned into one of those thug gangsta wannabes.. lol, i swear i cant stand those ppl (no offense), there r two ppl that i cannot stand in this world, n they are punk fobs w/ attitudes, n thug gangsta wannabes who never stops sayin 'yoyoyo homie yo' all the tyme, drives me nutsss.. n e wyz, i hope u go baq to ur old self jay, i didnt even recognize u wen i saw u first.. =T

not such a great week..

ahh where to begin, this week has been the biggest pimple week of my life. im not complainin about it, im juss pointin out a fact.
first, the army, seriously they have issues.. i skip skool to go to their interviews n tests.. Plus i shave my head for them, n i styll havnt got a call.. i hav til thursday, if i dont get a call by then, it means i didnt get the job n i didnt get the summer course.. which ruinssss my summer completely.
second, a good buddy of mine has fallen into peer pressure, im tellin u for the 15th time, if u get hooked on that stuff, ull never be able to go baq to ur normal self, stop wastin ur tyme/money on those things, its for ur own good..
third, ive been morphed into one lazy ass mofo, this yr is the first yr i didnt study for exams.. not good =T, usually my room symbolizes my thoughts, its usually clean, rite now you can barely walk around, its suchh a mess..
n e wyz, thats enuf explanations for today, dont wanna write so much on the first entry.. if i like this blog thing ill b baq, so til then..