whats so great about relationships?

Greetings! haha, i always wanted to say that,
guess who's back~ back again~ haha i'm finally HOME! after all the mind torturing exam days.. i'm finally back in brampton.. home sweet home~ =D i have to admit though - it was kinda sad movin out, believe it or not, i actually took a minute before i locked my suite door to think about everything that's happened in my 'frosh year'.. so many memories, some exciting, some not-so-exciting.. but overall it was pretty cool, i can honestly say i could've done so much more, but i'm happy with what i've experienced =) now - i jus can''t wait for this summer to come..

I kinda feel like talkin about relationships - i'm not an expert, and i don't think i would want to be one, cuz that would jus make things boring, but i jus feel like talkin about it, i dunno - maybe its cuz of the way things are goin these days, or maybe its cuz i never really wrote an entry about it.. regardless - i think it'll be a good entry..

So what would you say a relationship is built on? love? communication? trust? attachment? all of the above? personally - i believe a relationship is everything about trust.. if you don't have trust with that significant other, you can't or don't feel like tellin them anything, therefore there is very little or no communication.. which means you can't possibly feel attached to that person, and in the end, no connection between you two.. followin me? good.

Like the title says, i would like to ask - what is so great about relationships? sure you get to love and be loved, sure you get to cuddle and be all cute infront of people, sure you get to feel appreciated and feel like nothing else matters, and yes you get to do things that you normally would not do with other people.. but tell me, is it really worth all your time and effort to keep it together and find out in the end that it was never meant to be in the first place? normally i would say yes, because its not about how it starts or how it ends, its the during that counts and that is what you should remember.. but right now - i'm not so sure, right now - i can't think of any reason convincing enough to make me believe that relationships are what they meant to me in the past..

I'm not the type of person who gets along with their ex very well.. in fact - i don't like being around my ex.. let alone talk to them. it's juss too weird for me. i dont get how some people can juss be "friends" after all they've been through. doesn't it feel strange? it's like pretending you guys were never together in the first place, u know? you can't go "backwards" in relationships.. at least i can't - you should always go forward.. if things go the way you don't want them to go, and you can't fix it no matter how hard you try, it's time you find someone better, not go backwards and be "friends".. thats jus a waste of your time..

Which leads me to a pet peeve of mine. i find it really really sad/pitiful when people say something like "if i can't have you as my lover, i''d rather have you as a friend than not have you in my life at all" or something corny like "if there's one thing i'm scared of, its the thought of me losing you".. seriously - what's your problem? there are tons and i mean TONS of men & women out there who are jus waiting to meet you. even if you spent every minute of your life gettin to know them, you don't even get close to the half of it.. and yet you'd rather sit there and tell him/her that you'd want to be "friends" because you failed to be their so-called-"lover"? or tell them you're afraid of them being out of your life? i dont know about you but i would much rather spend that time gettin to know someone i havn't experienced yet.. i guess its cuz i believe in trying everything once, but when i hear "can you believe he said that to her, isn't that sweet?" my response would be "nope, that's juss plain pathetic.. he should get out more" - why so much hate you say? because they're so hopelessly attached to their significant other that they fail to realize what they're missing.. and that annoys me quite a lot..

And another thing - i can't stand it when people say "i'll love you forever" or "we'll be together forever" or anything in the lines of "me" "you" and "forever" combined.. doesn't it scare the crapload out of you when someone says "we'll be together forever"? i mean - sure its a nice thing to say, but can you really picture yourself with that person and that person ONLY for the rest of your life? i highly doubt you can - and if you can - its either you found your true love, or you need to find yourself a therapist.. and chances are - you're gonna need a therapist..
now i don't mean to say i don't believe in true love - i do, who doesn't? i just don't happen to believe the ones that were shown to me ever since i was a kid..

love at first sight? puh-leasseee, what kinda fairy-tale-life do you live in? lust always comes before love.
childhood sweethearts? yes - it happens, sometimes people do get married with people they've known ever since they were born, but most of them don't stay 'married' for a long time..
true love lasts forever? maybe, its a possibility, it may just as well be the only thing that is actually forever.. but that doesn't mean you should say "i'll be with you forever" to anyone you're with... because for one thing - like i said before, it is a very scary thing to say if you really think deeply about it.. and two - you may actually mean it, but the other person might get the wrong idea and feel trapped or tied to you because of somethin like that. you know what i mean?

It's not like i felt like this for a long time though, it's jus recently that i realized i'm beginning to feel this way.. i still have yet to find out why - i'll let you know when i know haha.. now that i look at it, all this was really just me complaining about relationships.. i don't complain much, in fact i despise complaining.. but i guess you'll have to pardon me just this one time ;)