perplexed thoughts n dilemmas.. i hate this summer

havnt update in a while, wussup everyone, to all the faithful 'styl3z.blogspot' readers.. this wil be my last update til further notice..

ive made a deal w/ my parents bout my drums n the summer.. first they said they would take away my drums.. then they said im not allowed to play the drums for the summer cuz i focus on drums more than my 'education'..
so ive made a deal w/ em, since they're so worried that i spend more time on drums than my studies, i volunteerly suggested that they take away my computer for teh summer, in return i get to play the drums
fortunately the deal worked, but now i can no longer update this blog pg, n my aa pg.. unless im home alone ^^

this whole week my mom's friend stayed w/ us.. everyday we went sumwhere, if i remember correctly.. it was like this
mon- heartlake park
tues- i forget..
wed- wonderland
thus- ontario place
fri- niagara falls
sat- balm beach

but yea, it was one hella week.. im extremely tired.. they left at 10 this mornin - sunday.
im supposed to be at church leadin praise but the timing wasnt right.. my parents had to giv ride to airport n therefore i had no ride to church..

one of my close friend's been havin some troubles w/ his gf..
i wont mention his name for protection wise,  but his gf is in korea rite now, n he doesnt know if she's comin baq, she mite juss stay there for the rest of her life.. which suckss juss from hearin it =T
im sry mann, hopefully ull get over it,
like u said "out of sight = out of mind" right? if she doesnt make it baq, ull get over n find a new one like u always do =) dun stress too much about it, 
ur the only person i depend on when it comes to my problems/troubles.. to see u stressin urself w/ a dilemma isnt a pretty picture for me.. if u need  ne thin, let me know k?

its really weird, now that i think about it, i never keep my promises w/ myself.. i remember tellin myself "im never gonna get into relationships" and "im never gonna touch cigarette/alcohol"..
i never wanted a gf cuz of i grew up seein my friends treatin their gf(s) like dirt.. i was afraid id be juss like them, n if i treated n e one like that, i could never forgive myself..
i never wanted to smoke or drink.. cuz i thought they were pointless/stupid n a waste of time.. but now that i look at it, id much rather regreat sumthin i Did than sumthin i Didnt do..

im in sum serious dilemma rite now.. i dun wanna make a big deal outta this but maybe i made a mistake.. lately i keep thinkin, i shouldve kept the promise i made w/ myself..
'try everything only once'.. everyday my thoughts of you grow weaker and smaller.. im actually scared that i might stop thinkin about you, i dun want that.. but wut can i do? maybe my friend Is right bout the whole 'out of sight = out of mind' thing..

sigh..