haha.. did i say 'hate'?

ill get back to the journals soon, as fer now im gonna put wut i put on my aa..
this summer isnt as bad as i thought itd be..
everythins goin well, i feel like a kid inside a candystore loll
til now i remember takin things so seriously.. but recently i seem to b laughin at everything..
feelin at ease, n i dun remember myself bein as satisfied as i am now..

i wonder why?
hmm.. could it becuz i got my drums back? no
cuz i dun hav to deal w/ skool ppl? nope
cuz my back is healing? nah but i aint complainin =)
cuz im beautiful? haha its a thought.. lol
i think im like this cuz i used to be so wanting.. so `obsessed` w/ everything, stressin myself out so much at such pointless things..
things like girls, popularity, etc.. but Especially `bein nice` n `swallowin my pride for others`

but not n e more, i will no longer stress myself out by swallowin my guts n lettin some punks push me around..
theres only a few who knows who i really 'am'.. and i guaran-damn-tee that n e one readin isnt one of them..

little did u know that i had two sides of myself..
im stickin with one now..
if u push me, ur gonna get pushed back 10 times harder.. dats all i gotta say..
so push me one more time.. i dare you